Fear by ttopswag

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life · @ttopswag · Mar 19 '18 (edited)

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Fear

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The hope of life tends to bring me down 
and when I try to stare, its fortune playing a role,
one against me.
I am weak and broken, I can't roll, 
even if the ropes would be turned against me.  

My ego hunts like a man with the spare,
hunts men,aiming at dreams with despair. 
I am at this shore, staring at responsibility turning all my hard work to nothing, so much that I see a broke friend and i have nothing to spare. 
I feel i have a wall against me. 

And I cant move!
I am stocked, in here, 
my foot against the stone, my heart beats like its dance time and my first step might be false,
steps failed and I am off the cliff, too much of the air is too much, those were initials to my thoughts at first,
but I ignored.
so i cant breath.  

I am trapped in the sky, falling from height to height,
Fear holding my breathe, echos enveloping the cloud dear,
And i am seen trapped by fright, my self esteem going down the drain like an under value freight. 
If this is all to life, i feel it all should end just there, 
and if that's too much a distance, i am not willing to take anymore pain. 
Let it all end here.

Fist drawn to battle it all, 
but i am just this weak little boy..... 
I cant fight! despite been bullied by fear.


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@alfred1 · Mar 20 '18

From the height on a ladder, we will fall when we tend to look down or elsewhere asides the main place we are going to. Staring at how great life issues are tend to weigh us down but smiling at the storm and at the same time looking forward and ahead keeps us moving. Thanks @ttopswag for this great lines of poem, I really love it

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@ttopswag · Mar 20 '18

thanks for reading bruvh

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@bdmillergallery · Mar 21 '18

Nicely done. There is so much to dissect here in this short poem. I read it about 4 times and got something different each time. Thanks for the good read!

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@rebeccafl · Mar 19 '18

And here he is again, the master poet.
You are not alone dear...

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@ttopswag · Mar 20 '18

sweeet Becca

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