三个一|月旦评| “散” - 散不開的陰霾 by tydebbie

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cn · @tydebbie · Apr 16 '18 (edited)

$1.60

三个一|月旦评| “散” - 散不開的陰霾

中國的傳統 - 重男輕女破碎了許多家庭
我的家庭也深受其害
從小, 就已經是爺不愛奶不疼的

唯一愛我的是外婆
雖然年紀小, 但對於誰愛你誰不愛你卻早早了然於心

六歲的一個晚上, 媽媽罕見地不在家
晚飯時電話響了
爸爸拿起那座紅色撥號的家用電話
安靜的聽完, 安靜的放下

然後轉過頭來對著我和姐說: 外婆去世了。

姐姐開始啜泣, 我不明白去世是甚麼
但一股害怕的感覺從心底湧出
我開始嚎啕大哭
伏在爸爸肩上哭得死去活來

後來的事我也記不清楚了
但我記得姐姐坐在床邊唱詩歌哄我睡

>天空裡散聚雲片片，無奈月明星不閃， 
莫流淚，悲歡合離是難免， 祈求上主恩每一刻能抹淚面。
<<心靈的迴響>>

![15965452_10158238761540657_3328826823695280967_n.jpg](https://gateway.ipfs.io/ipfs/QmW8n6bs2KeQFU2HFK7ivQH8qqk8mA9ZT1fXCRAsXy8q4r)

從那天起,我腦子內天天響起這首詩歌
對於死亡和對於歌詞, 我都是懵懵懂懂
但我知道我的心中從此有一股陰霾揮散不去

我忘了直到甚麼時候我唱這首詩歌時再也沒有眼淚
我只知道當我真正了解死亡後, 我也再不敢拿出來唱了
每一次唱都彷彿把那傷口再打開來一樣

直到今天再把這段塵封的詩歌拿出來
仍然感受到那份陰霾緊緊的濃罩著
揮散不去

> 閒坐悲君亦自悲，百年都是幾多時
遣悲懷三首 . 元稹

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@cn-cutie.pie · Apr 16 '18

@tydebbie, 参加月旦评的同学都好厉害，小可可一定支持你哟~~~ ![img](https://i.imgur.com/DXcDBTS.png)

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@tydebbie · Apr 16 '18

謝謝小可可

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@cn-naughty.boy · Apr 16 '18

@tydebbie, 虽然你的月旦评写得赛过莎士比亚，但是我一直有点犹豫要不要点赞，说出来你可能不信，我练过一阳指，我这个赞要是点下去，你搞不好会死！

顺路 @cn-cutie.pie 妹子，撩一个 ？

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@tydebbie · Apr 16 '18

點吧 來點我吧

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@coder-bts · Apr 16 '18

不知道怎么回复这篇心情沉重的文章

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@tydebbie · Apr 16 '18

哈哈哈 沒事啦 
沉重完了就輕了

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@ericet · Apr 16 '18

我只点赞

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@tydebbie · Apr 16 '18

收下你的讚 謝謝你

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@honoru · Apr 16 '18

我只能點贊。。。說不出其他的話。。。

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@tydebbie · Apr 16 '18

謝謝你呀 ：)

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@snailsong · Apr 16 '18

死是一另一种方式存在，尊重是最好的回答

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@tydebbie · Apr 16 '18

是我想到鑽牛角尖了
笑

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@tvb · Apr 17 '18

小时候我奶把我绑在窗户台上了，光顾着哄我表哥和表弟哈哈。
不过后来我奶对我就挺好的了，后来观念就变了。

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@tydebbie · Apr 17 '18

那些糟心的年代

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