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HOW I FEEL by valeria02

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HOW I FEEL
>*Los románticos y los artistas se hacen fuertes y cuando te han dado todo lo suyo, algunos se tambalean y caen, después de todo, no es fácil golpearse el corazón contra el muro de algún idiota loco* [Pink Floyd Outside The Wall](https://www.songstraducidas.com/letratraducida-Outside_The_Wall_31723.htm)

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Hola Hivers, ¿cómo están? Hoy quiero expresarles como me siento, la verdad que ayer experimente uno de los sentimientos más oscuros de mi vida,  perdí otra persona importante en mi vida de nuevo, y ahora me estado cuestionando si realmente es factible creer que alguien en la vida pueda ser tan mediocre, ayer experimente la misma sensación que seguramente experimentan los poetas, artistas, los escritores, los cantantes ya entiendo de donde traen toda su inspiración y todas creo que pueden desencadenarse desde el dolor, mi vida individualmente es una constante nostalgia y melancolía me siento como parada en el medio de un desierto en el que si miro atrás no hay más que bonitos momentos de una niñez bien vivida, y si miro al frente un futuro lleno de promesas como yo, vacías e inciertas, muchas cosas fuertes seguidas últimamente y sigo preguntándome como aún sigo aquí, como el logrado soportar tanto… como decía Héctor Lavoe pronto llegara el día de mi suerte, mi vida está muy cerca de la propia vida y la muerte más que las de otras personas.

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Quise iniciar mi post citando a *Pink Floyd*  porque ellos siempre me han transmitido el sentido de la vida desde una perspectiva de que la vida no es bonita, ni perfecta porque tiene todas sus esquinas pero al final lo importante es que tú seas fuerte desde adentro para poder enfrentar sin sufrir mucho todo lo que a ella la compone.

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Probablemente este sea el post más oscuro que vayan a leer de mi

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Pero también sé que más de uno va a sentirse identificado porque todos alguna vez  nos hemos sentido tristes con las cosas que nos pasan en la vida más sin embargo siempre trato de llevar mi tristeza a un plano estético ya que cuando estoy así es cuando más me inspiro a escribir sobre cosas profundas del alma.

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*solo quiero ser feliz, y poder ser una chica normal, hay veces en las que quisiera salir corriendo y escaparme y correr tras mis sueños sin miedo a nada, confiada de que lo lograre pero se vuelve cada día más lejano y mi desesperanza crece y crece más y más mientras eso ocurre veo que mis sueños se vuelven ilusiones, ilusiones polvo, polvo que se va con el viento y desaparece frente a mis ojos en una tarde lluviosa la flor más hermosa del jardín veo marchitarse, por su dolor que esconde tras esos delicados pétalos que muy sutilmente desprenden un brillo, pero no un brillo cualquiera sino uno el cual la hace única y especial su aroma cambia paso a paso de un aroma que daba alegría al alma a un aroma que hacía que las demás flores perdieran peltre belleza mientras que el corazón de mi cuerpo se unía con mis pensamientos para formar un nudo en mi garganta, dejaba sentir también que poco a poco mi corazón se partía pedacito a pedacito tome aquella flor y empecé a tomar pétalo por pétalo mientras una lagrima recorría mi mejilla y corazón sentía una sensación extraña y pensaba en todo aquello que me hacía recordar lo que yo más amaba. 
La tarde no se hizo esperar para hacerse la noche aun llovía prepare un té para acompañar la agonía de mi alma, me senté en la mesa y mi única amiga era la soledad, aquel té recuerdo que tenía un aroma que arrollaba mi alma y me pregunte ¿Cómo un olor, un sabor, una voz, puede hacerse tan imprescindible para la vida de alguien? Fue allí entonces cuando me di cuenta que mis pensamientos era resultado de mis experiencias de la vida que me han marcado y que desembocaban mis más recónditos sentimientos del alma*

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#### La flor de ese jardín soy yo
### Fotografia @ElberthGil
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### Gracias por leer hasta aquí
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Gracias una vez mas a @Hive por este espacio, a @Appreciator por el apoyo y a todos los Hivers por leer, nos leemos en un nuevo post.

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HOW I FEEL
>*Romantics and artists grow strong and when they've given you all of theirs, some of them wobble and fall, after all, it's not easy to bang your heart against some crazy idiot's wall* [Pink Floyd Outside The Wall](https://www.songstraducidas.com/letratraducida-Outside_The_Wall_31723.htm)

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Hello Hivers, how are you? Today I want to tell you how I feel, the truth is that yesterday I experienced one of the darkest feelings of my life, I lost another important person in my life again, and now I have been questioning myself if it is really feasible to believe that someone in life can be so mediocre, yesterday I experienced the same feeling that poets, artists, writers, singers surely experience, I understand where they get all their inspiration from and I think they can all be triggered from the pain, my life individually is a constant nostalgia and melancholy I feel like standing in the middle of a desert in which if I look back there are only beautiful moments of a childhood well lived, and if I look ahead a future full of promises like me, empty and uncertain, many strong things followed lately and I keep wondering how I'm still here, how I managed to endure so much .... as Hector Lavoe used to say, soon the day of my fate will come, my life is very close to my own life and death more than those of other people.

![20200307_170531.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/valeria02/48pXBbwFsK3raNUwNgZS61trFRTz4mxeUwvDLemoPSKJ4mtk7y7mDWL9KX5zJDzGxP.jpg)

This is probably the darkest post you will ever read from me
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But I also know that more than one will feel identified because we all have felt sad at some time with the things that happen to us in life, but nevertheless I always try to take my sadness to an aesthetic level because when I'm like this is when I am most inspired to write about deep things of the soul.

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*I just want to be happy, and to be able to be a normal girl, there are times when I would like to run away and escape and run after my dreams without fear of anything, confident that I will succeed but it becomes more distant every day and my hopelessness grows and grows more and more while that happens I see that my dreams become illusions, illusions dust, dust that goes with the wind and disappears in front of my eyes on a rainy afternoon the most beautiful flower in the garden I see wither, for its pain that hides behind those delicate petals that very subtly give off a glow, but not just any shine but one that makes it unique and special its aroma changes step by step from an aroma that gave joy to the soul to an aroma that made the other flowers lose their pewter beauty while the heart of my body joined with my thoughts to form a lump in my throat, I also felt that little by little my heart was breaking piece by piece I took that flower and began to take it petal by petal while a tear ran down my cheek and heart I felt a strange sensation and thought of everything that made me remember what I loved the most. 
I sat at the table and my only friend was loneliness, that tea I remember had an aroma that overwhelmed my soul and I wondered how a smell, a taste, a voice, can become so essential to someone's life? It was then that I realized that my thoughts were the result of my life experiences that had marked me and that led to my innermost feelings of the soul*

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#### The flower in that garden is me
### Photography @ElberthGil
![20210319_150017.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/valeria02/23wWto3WkcBrK7ZRyzAJNQx77qxtuGUjYEMmkmKDr4mom16G7sSo1QrkawNtuXiDrETDi.jpg)

### Thanks for reading this far
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Thanks once again to @Hive for this space, to @Appreciator for the support and to all Hivers for reading, see you in a new post.

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!discovery 25 nice post!
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@valeria02 ·
Thanks💖💖
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@sagardyola ·
Take care, stay strong
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@valeria02 ·
Thank you yes, you have to be strong 😊
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