在他身後,蘇菲大顆大顆的眼淚掉下來。 煮了面,她吃了一口。洗了澡,她躺到了野的身邊。野睡得很香,野從不打呼噜,以往,他平穩的呼吸常會使蘇菲從煩燥的情緒裏解脫出來,而現在,這平穩的呼吸卻像一把不夠鋒利的刀,一點一點在她的皮膚上劃著,那痛是那麽從容,那麽均勻,仿佛永遠不會消失。 蘇菲不知道自己有沒有做出決定,在最後的決定之前,她不想鬧,她已經足夠成熟,或者說,她應該足夠成熟,她現在最想要做的,是找到恩的下落。 第二天早上,野和她一起醒來,一起洗漱,要跟她一起下樓吃早餐。 “怎麽這麽早今天?” "想跟你吃個早餐啊,昨天一天沒見著。"野一邊說一邊摟住蘇菲的腰。蘇菲輕輕推開他:“刷牙呢別鬧。” “好好好。那你快點。”野有點掃興地走出衛生間。 "他沒有發現我的情緒異常嗎,沒有發現我的眼睛時常腫著嗎,他是不是這兩天都沒有看過我的臉?" 蘇菲又掉下幾滴眼淚,從小到大,蘇菲的眼淚一直出奇地多,野曾說她應該去演瓊瑤劇,沒有人會比蘇菲更會哭,而同時,野對她的眼淚已經有了免疫力,習以爲常也是人之常情,他不覺得蘇菲哭了是什麽大不了的事,蘇菲也理解他,蘇菲還能理解老夫老妻間,可能並不會太注重對方的臉,蘇菲換角度想了想,如果說野的眼睛是腫著的她沒有發現,那也是可能的。蘇菲停住了眼淚甚至停住了悲傷,她發覺自己不應該再覺得委屈,她並不無辜,她現在應該做的,或許是去接受。 但她不能接受恩的消失。 她不止一次想過恩爲什麽要切斷和她的聯系,那天晚上,在蘇菲看來,恩很開心,她記得每一個他的表情,動作,他最後的笑,蘇菲不認爲有人會僞裝得那麽像,恩喜歡蘇菲,這是蘇菲一直確定的事,恩在遇到那麽難的事後也未斷了與蘇菲的聯系,爲什麽現在要這樣做,蘇菲想不明白,完全不明白,她一定要弄明白。 如果說這段時間她的目的只有一個:找到恩,問他爲何切斷兩個人的聯系,爲什麽那麽絕情,爲什麽不能對她明說,她可以接受,她不會糾纏,她會立即放他走。她甚至在這麽長的時間裏都未曾想過幾次他的臉,他們曾經說過的話,發生的事,她選擇把一切遺忘,因爲任何想像在沒找到恩之前都變得毫無意義,如果可以確定恩不會再出現,蘇菲會將所有記憶封鎖,但現在她不僅沒有死心,反而把這當成她唯一的目的,或說希望,找到恩,知道他離開的理由變成了一種自我折磨的執念,而因爲和野關系的改變,這一執念卻又變成了一種詭異的希望,不,不是那種美好的憧憬,只是她存在的價值,她看到的一點點光亮,至于找到恩能怎麽樣她卻完全沒有精力再去考慮,只知道一定要找到,在這之前,她什麽都不想理會。 ![微信图片_20200804221637.jpg](https://images.hive.blog/DQmddjaAHqUS5EVDewJw73vb48R86AqF2Vdx5X8nEh3UuL9/%E5%BE%AE%E4%BF%A1%E5%9B%BE%E7%89%87_20200804221637.jpg)
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voter | weight | wgt% | rshares | pct | time |
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abit | 0 | 14,513,001,888,535 | 50% | ||
wongshiying | 0 | 14,283,342,281 | 100% | ||
lemooljiang | 0 | 35,563,114,996 | 100% | ||
ace108 | 0 | 319,758,817,221 | 11% | ||
tensaix2j | 0 | 4,807,862,908 | 100% | ||
laoyao | 0 | 23,718,193,331 | 50% | ||
somebody | 0 | 16,566,597 | 50% | ||
midnightoil | 0 | 83,382,831,775 | 50% | ||
xiaohui | 0 | 471,865,763,360 | 50% | ||
oflyhigh | 0 | 2,976,087,921,016 | 50% | ||
helene | 0 | 620,689,793,335 | 50% | ||
sweetsssj | 0 | 10,868,986,779,832 | 33% | ||
cnfund | 0 | 78,675,873,122 | 100% | ||
justyy | 0 | 1,043,660,600,093 | 100% | ||
btshuang | 0 | 1,509,426,009 | 100% | ||
dapeng | 0 | 44,012,729,245 | 100% | ||
devilwsy | 0 | 3,941,927,942 | 100% | ||
janiceting | 0 | 3,945,812,594 | 100% | ||
blackbunny | 0 | 37,248,667,693 | 50% | ||
elizacheng | 0 | 13,456,280,524 | 9% | ||
lingfei | 0 | 38,806,716,668 | 50% | ||
travelnepal | 0 | 30,045,548,451 | 50% | ||
guyverckw | 0 | 193,043,797,591 | 100% | ||
nuagnorab | 0 | 459,009,764,519 | 100% | ||
linuslee0216 | 0 | 1,497,476,121 | 100% | ||
wilkinshui | 0 | 146,621,477,447 | 100% | ||
exec | 0 | 126,725,236,067 | 50% | ||
eval | 0 | 396,488,291 | 50% | ||
alphacore | 0 | 85,346,616,291 | 5.03% | ||
aaronli | 0 | 163,944,579,263 | 100% | ||
marylaw | 0 | 1,583,990,933 | 100% | ||
sam99 | 0 | 239,004,318,110 | 16.99% | ||
shenchensucc | 0 | 65,180,239,958 | 100% | ||
krischy | 0 | 24,245,965,882 | 80% | ||
ew-and-patterns | 0 | 98,279,274,094 | 5% | ||
biuiam | 0 | 3,677,684,858 | 100% | ||
davidmendel | 0 | 10,697,101,919 | 80% | ||
mrpointp | 0 | 303,259,313,325 | 100% | ||
mygod | 0 | 1,503,138,610 | 100% | ||
dine77 | 0 | 8,354,854,381 | 9% | ||
everrich | 0 | 12,882,950,170 | 100% | ||
syh7758520 | 0 | 23,438,753,619 | 100% | ||
nicolemoker | 0 | 16,806,458,819 | 80% | ||
windtalker | 0 | 835,609,438 | 100% | ||
liangfengyouren | 0 | 5,531,899,794 | 80% | ||
mangoanddaddy | 0 | 3,277,098,193 | 80% | ||
leir | 0 | 5,032,090,275 | 100% | ||
tvb | 0 | 27,272,324,881 | 35% | ||
karja | 0 | 450,068,926,366 | 20% | ||
mrspointm | 0 | 344,875,018,220 | 100% | ||
liumei | 0 | 14,373,286,775 | 100% | ||
waiyee422 | 0 | 9,774,625,394 | 100% | ||
yellowbird | 0 | 37,958,500,084 | 100% | ||
rosatravels | 0 | 718,653,572,306 | 100% | ||
superbing | 0 | 572,215,539 | 90% | ||
minloulou | 0 | 12,669,956,888 | 100% | ||
victory622 | 0 | 148,467,044,929 | 100% | ||
gtpjfoodbank | 0 | 31,102,810,191 | 90% | ||
investegg | 0 | 26,359,891,249 | 0.69% | ||
jychbetter | 0 | 126,199,942,923 | 100% | ||
winniex | 0 | 444,273,841,636 | 100% | ||
rtonline | 0 | 70,918,552,051 | 100% | ||
jianan | 0 | 3,652,437,656 | 100% | ||
windowglass | 0 | 969,881,657,462 | 100% | ||
zmx | 0 | 13,961,455,776 | 100% | ||
nileelily | 0 | 6,684,829,786 | 100% | ||
jacktan | 0 | 3,020,571,381 | 50% | ||
angelina6688 | 0 | 46,856,834,933 | 100% | ||
suzn.poudel | 0 | 2,137,292,500 | 50% | ||
cheva | 0 | 184,033,621,489 | 100% | ||
iguazi123 | 0 | 4,001,248,535 | 60% | ||
fun2learn | 0 | 3,523,198,719 | 3% | ||
maiyude | 0 | 3,894,081,504 | 100% | ||
wilhb81 | 0 | 53,631,943,976 | 10% | ||
john371911 | 0 | 1,059,461,404,608 | 100% | ||
emmali | 0 | 134,153,851,693 | 100% | ||
youandme | 0 | 900,132,980 | 100% | ||
kirato | 0 | 99,967,125,444 | 100% | ||
dailychina | 0 | 6,200,073,227 | 100% | ||
nostalgic1212 | 0 | 190,911,610,759 | 100% | ||
shentrading | 0 | 3,354,117,657 | 100% | ||
also.einstein | 0 | 8,821,337,627 | 100% | ||
fishbb | 0 | 2,018,851,938 | 50% | ||
kymio | 0 | 523,414,373 | 3.75% | ||
ericet | 0 | 3,892,521,900 | 100% | ||
aellly | 0 | 165,507,061,437 | 100% | ||
huangzuomin | 0 | 16,661,611,379 | 100% | ||
liewsc | 0 | 3,043,330,903 | 50% | ||
tanzy | 0 | 1,418,126,201 | 50% | ||
fishdd | 0 | 1,968,465,938 | 50% | ||
mfxqaq | 0 | 1,308,225,810 | 100% | ||
andrewma | 0 | 24,611,404,600 | 100% | ||
xiaoliang | 0 | 16,455,871,627 | 100% | ||
i-d | 0 | 585,482,967,626 | 100% | ||
honoru | 0 | 55,092,685,338 | 100% | ||
hmayak | 0 | 27,993,132,638 | 100% | ||
archisteem | 0 | 1,236,132,472 | 7.5% | ||
springfall | 0 | 3,459,265,681 | 100% | ||
fishlucy | 0 | 14,925,950,587 | 50% | ||
hkphotography | 0 | 3,067,111,675 | 100% | ||
pgr | 0 | 800,063,354 | 50% | ||
ronbong | 0 | 3,843,109,949 | 100% | ||
robertyan | 0 | 19,031,166,575 | 100% | ||
dses | 0 | 36,133,255,510 | 70% | ||
xiaoyuanwmm | 0 | 1,331,784,978 | 100% | ||
kidsreturn | 0 | 5,685,603,870 | 100% | ||
tydebbie | 0 | 7,819,759,403 | 50% | ||
moneybaby | 0 | 37,327,374,048 | 100% | ||
ybeyond | 0 | 5,656,090,985 | 100% | ||
team-cn | 0 | 274,890,329,040 | 100% | ||
hardmetal | 0 | 2,799,354,287 | 100% | ||
coder-bts | 0 | 9,372,468,399 | 100% | ||
chick-fil-a | 0 | 3,816,967,737 | 100% | ||
redlobster | 0 | 3,824,872,480 | 100% | ||
fiveguys | 0 | 1,992,716,821 | 100% | ||
marcoy2j | 0 | 3,239,638,110 | 100% | ||
tiffany4ever | 0 | 5,130,794,921 | 100% | ||
bonefish | 0 | 3,799,269,397 | 100% | ||
chilis | 0 | 3,805,760,761 | 100% | ||
olive-garden | 0 | 1,922,185,715 | 100% | ||
zhuanzhibufu | 0 | 2,841,671,369 | 100% | ||
shine.wong | 0 | 3,966,400,436 | 100% | ||
shuxuan | 0 | 3,876,445,387 | 100% | ||
sunai | 0 | 1,094,339,292 | 100% | ||
zongli | 0 | 2,094,306,692 | 100% | ||
zhuxi | 0 | 2,766,849,469 | 100% | ||
julian2013 | 0 | 123,670,240,683 | 100% | ||
idakarlsen | 0 | 57,876,788,149 | 20% | ||
silvertop | 0 | 28,013,004,584 | 100% | ||
melaniewang | 0 | 17,261,402,236 | 100% | ||
teamcn-news | 0 | 1,927,323,112 | 100% | ||
wenxuecity | 0 | 2,113,720,490 | 100% | ||
mitbbs | 0 | 3,815,617,140 | 100% | ||
artsymelanie | 0 | 57,328,198,773 | 100% | ||
elizabethbit | 0 | 30,554,948,676 | 100% | ||
raynopssgold | 0 | 6,662,953,044 | 100% | ||
slientstorm | 0 | 1,220,515,755 | 100% | ||
pet.society | 0 | 426,187,943,340 | 100% | ||
minminlou | 0 | 551,733,562 | 75% | ||
annepink | 0 | 217,354,471,030 | 100% | ||
cherryzz | 0 | 103,246,391,022 | 100% | ||
teamcn-shop | 0 | 24,684,484,548 | 100% | ||
kelvinzhang | 0 | 6,278,865,616 | 100% | ||
starrouge | 0 | 1,048,492,524 | 50% | ||
wherein | 0 | 169,660,022,964 | 50% | ||
zerofive | 0 | 1,964,403,211 | 100% | ||
melodyzhou | 0 | 1,182,929,953 | 100% | ||
honey00 | 0 | 704,247,998 | 100% | ||
ahua | 0 | 1,207,520,743 | 100% | ||
morningshine | 0 | 138,701,611,957 | 100% | ||
cnstm | 0 | 138,854,999,588 | 50% | ||
cn-activity | 0 | 1,042,800,950 | 100% | ||
davidchen | 0 | 75,873,414,753 | 100% | ||
ctime | 0 | 522,103,851,634 | 3% | ||
mia-cc | 0 | 12,913,668,719 | 100% | ||
cecilian | 0 | 7,596,156,758 | 100% | ||
good2believe | 0 | 4,321,103,525 | 100% | ||
devyleona | 0 | 121,041,694,015 | 100% | ||
happygoluckynow | 0 | 3,793,094,581 | 100% | ||
mayiloveyou | 0 | 3,760,812,243 | 100% | ||
goodsimplelife | 0 | 3,691,432,318 | 100% | ||
yanhan | 0 | 111,097,622,350 | 100% | ||
m18207319997 | 0 | 50,241,114,355 | 100% | ||
lovelemon | 0 | 2,563,548,976 | 100% | ||
theinspiration | 0 | 574,799,785 | 100% | ||
epic4chris | 0 | 581,795,277 | 100% | ||
cn-hello | 0 | 3,190,924,144 | 100% | ||
mylord1992 | 0 | 1,220,277,444 | 100% | ||
icecoffee | 0 | 903,931,676 | 100% | ||
dailyke20 | 0 | 11,072,725,313 | 100% | ||
candy.tang | 0 | 12,071,756,159 | 100% | ||
omnivori | 0 | 1,924,348,924 | 90% | ||
kgame | 0 | 3,754,226,360 | 100% | ||
bitdance | 0 | 668,819,499 | 60% | ||
hertz300 | 0 | 5,633,218,875 | 100% | ||
koei | 0 | 2,612,054,846 | 100% | ||
delta-clan | 0 | 9,342,501,730 | 100% | ||
nympheas | 0 | 18,571,518,772 | 80% | ||
aaronli.sct | 0 | 731,584,481 | 10% | ||
steem-drivers | 0 | 2,240,112,493 | 100% | ||
sumd | 0 | 802,100,390 | 100% | ||
xiaoq.sports | 0 | 3,721,423,856 | 100% | ||
hykwf233 | 0 | 543,341,882 | 100% | ||
janaveda | 0 | 131,787,289,640 | 100% | ||
spt-skillup | 0 | 1,605,268,670,826 | 30% | ||
ericetchen | 0 | 1,963,129,458 | 100% | ||
stevewu | 0 | 5,348,150,923 | 100% | ||
kristinasiu | 0 | 1,920,970,667 | 100% | ||
trevorlp97 | 0 | 11,485,804,054 | 100% | ||
trevormomo | 0 | 2,237,744,780 | 100% | ||
annzhao | 0 | 2,665,246,021 | 100% | ||
cherrylp147 | 0 | 726,147,247 | 100% | ||
icon123456 | 0 | 16,285,946,900 | 100% | ||
cn-trail | 0 | 130,149,395 | 100% | ||
cnbuddy-reward | 0 | 71,376,883,253 | 100% | ||
chris55 | 0 | 860,437,392 | 100% | ||
dbfoodbank | 0 | 3,206,139,771 | 66.5% | ||
ladyalkaid | 0 | 1,642,067,026 | 100% | ||
lnakuma | 0 | 10,656,244,845 | 100% | ||
weddinggift | 0 | 4,308,445,472 | 100% | ||
ibutterfly | 0 | 1,210,315,250 | 100% | ||
bo022 | 0 | 5,736,218,270 | 100% | ||
kenchung1 | 0 | 5,598,610,559 | 100% | ||
steem.buzz | 0 | 1,928,425,360 | 100% | ||
catanknight | 0 | 3,738,658,723 | 100% | ||
lovequeen | 0 | 542,546,380,165 | 100% | ||
visionaer3003 | 0 | 277,727,600,078 | 5% | ||
littleksroad | 0 | 233,578,328,298 | 100% | ||
dryuen | 0 | 866,212,439 | 100% | ||
hive.curation | 0 | 727,374,594,681 | 10% | ||
jywahaha | 0 | 511,724,007,731 | 100% | ||
musiccccat | 0 | 11,807,021,106 | 100% | ||
logicforce | 0 | 1,796,326,458 | 50% | ||
life-timer | 0 | 1,178,453,614,329 | 15% | ||
xiaomalailiao | 0 | 991,244,392 | 100% | ||
weiweilove | 0 | 5,326,469,889 | 100% | ||
hatschi0773 | 0 | 113,422,905,463 | 5% | ||
cshin | 0 | 57,934,847,183 | 100% | ||
zeteli | 0 | 18,077,179,112 | 100% | ||
dagobert007 | 0 | 100,308,043,479 | 5% | ||
blogstats | 0 | 718,417,323 | 100% | ||
intacto | 0 | 39,858,245,099 | 3% | ||
boneym | 0 | 97,235,601,595 | 5% | ||
orianebrels | 0 | 3,451,478,801 | 100% | ||
boobcat | 0 | 12,148,344,833 | 5% |