  Unable to fall asleep, revising a new poem I wrote... *** **A House Divided** *I was in a life-long rush because I could not guess when I might self-combust* *Every sunrise to sunset I tried hard to run fast & far to outdistance disaster* ***  *** *But I was never free to be other than me or reset a date with fate* *I was never given one secure day to live in without fear of self-sabotage* ***  *** *So, a part of me carefully built a makeshift shelter from the storm while another part wore it down* *Meantime, I learned to pray and repeat, by night and day: Heaven save us from ourselves.* —-Y. Lababidi ***  *** Art by [Al Farrow](http://www.alfarrow.com/egon-schiele.html)
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Hello! This post has been manually curated, resteemed and gifted with some virtually delicious cake from the @helpiecake curation team! Much love to you from all of us at @helpie! Keep up the great work! <a href="http://steemit.com/@helpie">  </a> Manually curated by @sunravelme. <sub> @helpie is a [Community Witness](https://steemitwallet.com/~witnesses). </sub>
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Thank you, for your support.
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The art is incredible.
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I presume you refer to the sculpture (and not my slender poetry) & I agree :) Nice to see you back.
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Yes, the sculpture. I really like it. Being honest, poetry isn't really my thing, *but I didn't say I didn't like it.* Good to see you again!
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Shared on [Twitter](https://twitter.com/yahialababidi/status/1230043256320405506?s=21) #posh *** 
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