I still have not lost faith in humans nature to change for the better, whatever that may be. We live inside a system whether we want it or not, it effects us all. 

I have grown tall in my dreams and nothing will bring me down. Whether it reflects in my wallet in the future i have no idea but that does not matter to me. Sure it would be nice to have some extra income. And I believe I deserve more than what I am getting.

Currently working an 8 to 5 job getting paid 200 pesos per day. Thats 20USD.

As a handy man I do all kinds of maintenence and I love doing it. I love working with my hands. And I especially love welding.

![20211113_120031.jpg](https://images.ecency.com/DQmRh96J92rizCakFhXHGQvTR96cMbFbbxfupG7SEJU1ARa/20211113_120031.jpg)

This is that tanker I have been slowly working on during the free time and when I am able. It will be a while more before it is complete. Materials havent arrived yet but have been ordered. It was suppose to arrive this month but I dont know how much of that is true because of transportation of goods due to the plandemic is causing setbacks.

I have another problem however. My lower back. I can't be for sure how much longer I can withstand the pulsing excrutiating pains that shoot up my spine leaving me motionless on my knees sometimes. The frustration of it when it hits me has me in tears sometimes. I need an escape. Which is why I turned to blogging.

Albeit I am not the perfect writer or best guy to layout a beautiful looking blog. I just don't have that trait yet. That is just how I feel about it. I am trying.

For now I am doing both but to be honest I need to retire from hard labor jobs. I can't do desk jobs from an office at some small cubicle answering calls just the reason I speak english. This is what keeps being brought up to me over and over again. 

"Get a job making calls"

Blah NO! 

I rather shootmyself in the head then be a trapped rat. Been there done that. (No not shoot myself. being trapped like a fool)

I know there is no trap. I see the escape route, but there are obstacles I have to cross first before I get there. And I really want to finish that tanker too. My love for welding is winning me over lol.

My relationship with hive is about the same relationship i have in real life. You never know what is coming. Good or bad is irrelevent. Events happen and we learn new truths. These truths change us indefinetly. Nature IS a fight for survival. 

I have to constantly remind myself to be humble. Not everyone self realizes. And this can seem very frustrating. Sorrounded by intellectual animals for an awakening individual is tough. 

You may take what I say however you want. The pain I am feeling now physically really makes it hard to even care a snot about what others think right now. 

So in a way, venting my feelings into physical words helps me greatly. 

I wrote a few poems yesterday, I hope you enjoy. I posted them in blurt.

Also fyi, i will not be powering down POB, and PAY tokens. I liquiding most of my hive except enough for credits to vote and make posts and other smalm transactions. I also want to see how much I can earn to replenish what I am powering down.

I have just over 600 POB in total with delegation from another account of mine that got torn down for no real reason. Some people will always be slime. 

But I am moving on.

I will still be posting directly into the pob community, whether or not my rep goes up at this point is not a bother to me anymore.

Without further adue...

[Does reading titles trigger your urge to write? Short poetry](https://blurt.blog/poetry/@yayogerardo/does-reading-titles-trigger-your-urge-to-write-short-poetry)


Cheers everyone...


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