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Thank you for the kind words and support @jerrytsuseer, We seem to have very much in common. I have a younger brother who borrowed 100 dollars from me about 1 year ago, promising to pay it back. He paid half back after I confronted him about it, to this day he still owes 50, and I've not heard a word about it. It's not even about the money for me. Most of us are struggling, but if a person cannot be good for their word, then I just don't know, it's not something that I understand, and maybe that is what helped me escape addiction, because even during addiction I didn't seem to lose my morals. I made a bunch of mistakes and some relationships were destroyed, but stealing is something I never did, and my word was always good. Imagine a crack head who doesn't steal and was generous sharing crack with other crackheads, yeah it makes no sense I guess, but I was generous, swimming in a sea of people who simply had no morals left, if they ever had any.. Don't get me wrong, I have so much sympathy for people in addiction, having gone through that hell, but it wasn't the life for me, even if it took me 10 years to get out of. I consider myself very fortunate to have made it out, and it's sad that I feel like I need to be a hermit to stay safe from people lacking morals. I want to be able to trust everyone! There truly must just be a *disconnect* from sound morality for many. It really hits home when it's right in your face with family. For sure. Thank you Jerry, it's great to see you.
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From what I read here, you managed to maintain more of a "high road" (no pun intended) through your addictions; I was not so lucky @futuremind. I was generous to a fault with my clothes and food, even my accomodations when I had all of the above to share, but I prostituted my body for drugs, I panhandled on the streets, I slept under buildings when I could arrange nothing else. Still I managed to emerge damaged but whole. I am still walking the knife edge, and I suppose I will be the rest of my life. But no matter what, I will always try to help others, I will be frugal in my use of clean fresh water, I will try to recycle where that is available. It's great to "see" you as well Jacob my friend.
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I don't know how high the road was, sleeping under bridges, and incarceration was the norm for the entire time for me. You know, I do believe my lowest point was actually my "highest point" in the sense, waking up out of a blackout with a shotgun strewn at my side, a failed suicide attempt, I instantly thought of my children and what succeeding would have meant.. It was my wake up call and gave me the strength to put the shit down once and for all. >But no matter what, I will always try to help others One of the things that kept influencing me to relapse was the lack of help present for me, the feeling that no one cared.. I always tell people who have reached their "breaking point" with family members in addiction: *"Don't give up on your family, because they need you, and they are not in their right state of mind right now, giving up on them is not a good strategy, tough love shows a lack of love to many."* If we didn't make it make it out, we surely wouldn't have met each other Jerry. I'm grateful for you, and grateful you are clean today my friend.
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I am grateful for you as well Jacob my friend. People "In the Rooms" (AA) would insist I am still using, because I now have prescriptions for meds, but I take them according to the prescriptions (as far as the pain meds, usually less than prescribed). I'm off to begin my day or running around in the cold
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