> The reality is, *she does have the time. What she doesn't have,

Is the will.

Yes, I too am lacking the will. I think about all the things that I could be doing, but instead scroll through more Instagram stories and comment with friends in group chats. I justify it to myself by saying that I'm keeping up with my acquaintances and talking to my friends. But it is just distractions.

I really need to be figuring out how to start streaming from my PC to make content. I really need to set myself on a proper writing schedule to maximize readership and the value of my content (like who cares about my Splinterlands season report when I mostly do it nearly 2 weeks after the last season ended). I really need to get myself on a proper gym routine and nutrition program because no matter how little will I have in the moment, I ALWAYS feel better after I put in the work.

I think the comfort of my teaching job has left me so comfortable that I have let go of my goals and I'm just floating by. It is exactly what you say, while things aren't getting harder, they are shrinking in value. I see less friends face-to-face. I eat less quality food. I don't feel as athletic as I used to. I don't get the same buzz from creating content and entertaining.

The worst part is I feel mostly powerless to change. I sued to write 2-3 music articles a week when we were first growing our EDM publication Moon Lvnding. But now that I've been doing it for 5 years and we have a much bigger staff below me, I'm lucky to write 3 articles a month. I've had to event reviews just sitting on my "digital" assignment desk for over a month without touching them.

I definitely need a hard reset! Maybe it is time to eat a fistful of mushrooms and get my life back in order. Also, Fuck Fascism!