Miracles can happen, sometimes it just doesn't it's only God that can choose when or when not to give us a miracle: saddening and painful, but that's it. When it comes to God, I like to think the creator owns all the power and His will is what he chooses and even though we can still plead with him in prayer, we're still at his mercy. 

Even though I've gotten used to a hard reality, I still ask the "why me" questions, because it can still be saddening, and pain can be so real and we give in to our tears. 

*Sorry for the late reply*