Well, of course I wish to be better.  Don't I?

At some point I think I dig too deeply into the morass that is me.  It's a fine line for me, that introspection line.  I need to know, I need to assess, I need to change-but some times I think I pry the lid off just because I think I should.

In all honesty, I am essentially a happy (content) person.  I really do love my life and try to live it to the best of my ability.  Could I be better at some things?  Yes, of course I could.  Could I be worse?  Well, yeah, I have been.  Much worse.  Do I ever find the balance?  No.  All I can hope for is close enough for contentment.

My weight.  I'm about 12 kilos from where I feel I ought to be, but the trend line is down so I don't get too fussed up with the ANGLE of the line.  I mostly make good choices in my eating and when I don't I don't just castigate myself, I just go back to making good choices.  Because I'm going to fail every now and again...

Aside:  I've thought of you the last 10 days-my water heater failed and it took the 10 days to get it back.  Much of that is the "I live in an old less than admirably maintained place and every time I touch something it needs to be replaced" syndrome.  But I am now approaching 48 hours of continuous hot water service, I have all new fixtures and supply plumbing and I can flush my toilet without removing the back and pulling the chain manually.  That was a coincidental breakdown, not related to the water heater in any way.  There is still work to do, and things that must be fixed-but not today.  I might even go to the store and get some ice cream-or not :)