9-11-2018 , the date i had to stop , burned up and flushed out . I am doing fine now , it's just the world around me that doesn't seem to want me to get back up again . I would love to go to work again ( adapted to my condition ) but they just won't let me .  Just sitting at home makes it hard to handle , as in silence i can't escape from my pain . Still the medical world treads me from behind a desk on info from long ago , non took any actual test's on the condition i am in today . They hand me painkiller injections and pills for solution's . Me refusing there treatments dos not build any cooperation towards me and my situation . It makes me turn away from it all , loose myself in online gaming ( https://crossout.net/#/ ) . 
Saint Peter , the gatekeeper at checkpoint Charlie , we must have met him a thousand times before , sending us back here to be born again ,..... just tell him , Daniel is planing on getting true that gate this time , 3 6 9 is the code , now let me true ....... ;-)