I understand the bittersweet feeling, but there is actually no need for that (easier said than done, I know).  Look back at it, and realize you motivated people - even if it weren't that many - to reflect on their lives and their growth. It may not feel like an achievement right now, but it really is.

I ain't easy to keep a recurring thing going here. It's like you say: so many things are going on here. Most times, it were @brittanjosie's posts that reminded me to come over to your contest. I would come across one of her posts in PHC and every single time I planned to join. But always there were two more posts to check out (oh, how I hate those rules), which means I got completely distracted and often forgot all about it. I'm sure that goes for a lot of people. If only a day would have 72 hours...

19 weeks... I think you should feel proud more than anything else.

> at the end of the day, I hoped the contest to be profitable for me as well, no shame in that, right? We're all kinda here for rewards as well.

Absolutely no shame in that. But unfortunately, the harsh truth is that in my experience, contests are seldom profitable. I have run my fair share - still do - and I think the only contest that was ever profitable was the appreciation contest, but that's about it.

I hope a time will come when you will realize what a valuable thing you have been doing all these weeks - maybe not monetary-wide, but in so many other ways.

And good luck with the new project!!!