That is a great challenge, and I can completely relate. 

I still struggle in this area, in the area (specifically) of believing that I can "make a living" from things that were ill-designed to make a living from. The "reality" of perhaps *needing* to take a soulless job in a soulless company merely to survive clashes with my fundamental beliefs about our freedom, as human beings. It's not about *money,* it's about facing some fictional reality that "they" are somehow "winning" if I have to do anything most of the world considers "normal." Patience here is of the utmost importance... because we *can* live life on our own terms, but it's not just an "on switch;" it can take *years* to find/build stability.