Congratulations to you my friend. I think it's a multiple milestone for you there then. First let me say congratulations on 50th, it worth celebrations and worth being thankful for. I hope you get to cherish it for quite a long time to come. 
On **Ephemera**; thats another book added to your collections and its amazing to see how all these have happened for you this year. 2021 is turning out excellent and believe me I could key into your perspective and a little bit of appraisal for poetry. The truth is, I use to write and let my pain become my motivation. It was easy to make other people see into what I was feeling, the ability to express and paint even abstract pictures is powerful. It puts us in a particular state away from our current one and my goodness! It can be beautiful.