Yes, I wrote this last night and it was twice as long and I had to break it into two parts - this was the natural break - just after this, he muses about the effect his decision will have on Clare. He's weighing ten plus years with Elaine against his feelings for Clare - and he still feels committed to Elaine as many do despite the death of their mate - they refuse to begin a new relationship choosing instead to remain loyal to their deceased partner. I think Paul's at this point, but everything in his life right now is at sixes and sevens. He's so confused by the apparent apparition that he's not sure she's even dead - the sighting of Jake, his dead friend, has also complicated things - muddied the waters.