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## <center>Hive Open Mic 129: Trust</center>


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## Trust is a big word

I've had the same question repeated from many people who've been deeply hurt by those who professed to love them ... 

&nbsp;

> “How do I learn to trust again?” 

&nbsp;

I can totally relate to this question on a very personal level. 

I too have been lied to during one of my relationships. I was the only person in our social circle who didn’t know my partner was, in the words of a person who aired the truth many years later... “f*cking around”. 

For a couple of years, while we were together, my intuition screamed consistently that he was cheating on me. But his friends covered for him when I asked where he'd disappeared to on the odd occasion and our mutual friends didn’t feel it necessary to let me know what was common knowledge either. 

Perhaps it’s more socially acceptable for men to cheat. 

“Boys will be boys” after all.

**Right?**

![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)



I now have a son to raise as a man and I’ve educated him on how to treat people equally from the get go. 

His education has included sexism (and all the isms) and gender-bias as well. I do this to protect him as much as I do it to protect his potential partners. To encourage a sense of fairness, justice and accountability in him. To encourage his own personal growth and… ultimately… to hopefully build, in him, an innate sense of self esteem and self respect as well.

So that he'll be able to love, and be loved, fully in a vulnerable and honest way. Real connection. Isn't that what we all want in this disconnected world we inhabit? 

And how can anyone love us if we're unable to be ourselves or even to know who we truly are ourselves...

because we are too often programmed to be a stereotype from the day we enter the world.

I don’t believe anyone can achieve any authentic kind of self love, or acceptance either, if they're hammered into a stereotype of what a man or woman is "supposed" to be from birth. 

Most people lose a good part their authentic selves because of this rubbish. If not all of the best parts of themselves. And I guess it becomes hard for anyone to trust anything under such circumstances. 

But this is not a rant about comically outdated perspectives and socialization. I was talking more about being let down and hurt by those that profess to love us at the start of this post.

![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)

I guess most of us by my age, and probably at any age, have had our trust broken at least once. 

And our hearts as well.

When people ask me this question, "How will I ever trust again", I'm able to draw on some years of personal experience and, in addition, there is far more to being able to trust than meets the eye.

An inability to trust is a symptom of trauma.

As is handing over trust blindly because of the same. Which seems as though it's contradictory, but it is most definitely not.

And, as it turns out, **trust needs to be earned** anyway. 

But there's even more than **this** to consider when I think about the word "Trust"...

![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)

What I finally understood after repeated experiences with dishonesty, broken trust and disappointment over the years... is that even when trust **has** been earned you can’t really trust anybody but yourself at the end of the day. 

I know this sounds as though I’m somehow damaged or bitter because of my experience. 

But I'm really not. 

I'm very much at peace with things these days.

But it took three long years of total isolation and hard work after a final massive breach of trust to "get" and accept what I’m sharing with you here. 

It also took a great deal of thought. A f*ck ton of meditation. And even some research. And it took asking others who had similar journeys and listening to their stories and ways of progressing as well to find my own peace. 

I worked hard to return to some semblance of the person I once was. I was almost desperate to feel okay again, you see. The thing is… blindly trusting people the way that I used to was never okay in the first place. It was somewhat childish and extremely naive. 

And it got me hurt repeatedly. 

I lived in an ideal world created inside my own mind, mostly. Refusing to see any kind of real truth because reality wasn’t so pretty. Love and light, you know? Peace and love, you know? And yes. These things are all very good and well. 

It’s just… human beings. And human nature, you know?

And people sometimes react in strange ways and do strange things when they feel their survival is threatened. Even psychologically threatened - as in their place in a work, community or social hierarchy. 

So no. People do good things sometimes. And we do not so good things sometimes. And you can’t trust anyone one hundred percent **all** of the time because people make mistakes on to of all of this. 

The thing is... when I truly learned to be okay with myself, I found I didn't **need** to trust anybody else anyway. 

I was simply able to fully accept them as who they are.

![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)

That none of us are totally trustworthy all of the time is a fact.

Yes it is disappointing and it adds to the existential angst of the experience of "being human".

Hello. That's why we feel this in the first place. It's the nature of being human. This sense of inherent isolation despite our ongoing attempts at some kind of mutual perception and reality.

But while it can feel lonely initially, it is actually surprisingly liberating when you fully accept it. 

![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)

I think most of us "get it" intellectually but still secretly wish it weren’t so. That we could change it somehow. And it's in the taking of this realization from a concept to an awakening/understanding to a proper, full acceptance that the "liberation" occurs.

Understanding that people are generally unconsciously acting out their own stories and that their behaviour really has little or nothing to do with you is very liberating indeed. 

You get to a point where you don’t even feel you need to respond much. It’s simpler to just step back and wait things out. Wait for things to pass.

Even if it **seems** like you have something to do with an exchange, most of human communication is generally projection and miscommunication, surprisingly. This becomes very clear if you really take the time to put your own perspective aside, completely, and ask with enough curiosity to get a proper glimpse of another human being’s experience of the world.

Sometimes it's quite incredible how profoundly different two people who are having the same conversation's understanding is, of what has even been said.

Eye-opening, in fact!

Try it sometime. 

The next time you're having a difficult discussion with someone, take the time to reflect back to them what it is that you understand they have said. 

First!

"What I'm understanding you are saying is..." 

Start there. And do please let me know how it goes :)

Once you’re able to take things less personally and observe things with less attachment, or non-attachment in full… well… there  really isn't much need to trust anybody but yourself!

![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)

Nobody can control the behaviour of anybody else. And a person can be driven quite mad by even trying to do such a thing.

Because control is an illusion anyway, you see.

We all know this.

There’s a quote that goes something like "If you love someone set them free. If they come back they're yours forever and if they don't they never really were."

Are we able to "own" people as "ours".

Really?

How about just setting them free and not expecting them to come back or be anything other than they truly are instead?

![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)

## Happy HPUD to all! 🔥

I powered up today. Better late than never and not as much as I'd have liked because I've been on the go and am almost bleeding from the eyes to get this in, in the remaining three minutes.

But I'm here, on it and in for the duration. 


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 <center>“Love is the ultimate outlaw. 
It just won't adhere to any rules. 
The most any of us can do is to sign on as its accomplice. 
Instead of vowing to honor and obey,
maybe we should swear to aid and abet. 
That would mean that security is out of the question. 
The words "make" and "stay" become inappropriate. 
My love for you has no strings attached. <br>I love you for free.”<br>

<sub>Tom Robbins, Still Life with Woodpecker </sub></center>

<center><sub>I'll keep saying it until you believe me.</sub>




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<center>*Eternal Seeker<br> Hardened Dreamer<br> Mother<br> Warrior<br> Determined Dancer<br>and Stargazer<br><br>still...<br><br>Beyond fear is freedom<br><br>And there is nothing to be afraid of.<br><br><sub>To Life, with Love... and always for Truth!<br>Nicky Dee </sub>*</center>

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<center><sub>Featured montage created with Photo by <a href="https://unsplash.com/@anton_mishin?utm_source=unsplash&utm_medium=referral&utm_content=creditCopyText">Anton Mishin</a> on <a href="https://unsplash.com/s/photos/motel?utm_source=unsplash&utm_medium=referral&utm_content=creditCopyText">Unsplash</a> and Photo by <a href="https://unsplash.com/@cg?utm_source=unsplash&utm_medium=referral&utm_content=creditCopyText">Cristi Goia</a> on <a href="https://unsplash.com/s/photos/rain-glass?utm_source=unsplash&utm_medium=referral&utm_content=creditCopyText">Unsplash</a>
 
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I now have a son to raise as a man and I’ve educated him on how to treat people equally from the get go. \r\n\r\nHis education has included sexism (and all the isms) and gender-bias as well. I do this to protect him as much as I do it to protect his potential partners. To encourage a sense of fairness, justice and accountability in him. To encourage his own personal growth and… ultimately… to hopefully build, in him, an innate sense of self esteem and self respect as well.\r\n\r\nSo that he'll be able to love, and be loved, fully in a vulnerable and honest way. Real connection. Isn't that what we all want in this disconnected world we inhabit? \r\n\r\nAnd how can anyone love us if we're unable to be ourselves or even to know who we truly are ourselves...\r\n\r\nbecause we are too often programmed to be a stereotype from the day we enter the world.\r\n\r\nI don’t believe anyone can achieve any authentic kind of self love, or acceptance either, if they're hammered into a stereotype of what a man or woman is \"supposed\" to be from birth. \r\n\r\nMost people lose a good part their authentic selves because of this rubbish. If not all of the best parts of themselves. And I guess it becomes hard for anyone to trust anything under such circumstances. \r\n\r\nBut this is not a rant about comically outdated perspectives and socialization. I was talking more about being let down and hurt by those that profess to love us at the start of this post.\r\n\r\n![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)\r\n\r\nI guess most of us by my age, and probably at any age, have had our trust broken at least once. \r\n\r\nAnd our hearts as well.\r\n\r\nWhen people ask me this question, \"How will I ever trust again\", I'm able to draw on some years of personal experience and, in addition, there is far more to being able to trust than meets the eye.\r\n\r\nAn inability to trust is a symptom of trauma.\r\n\r\nAs is handing over trust blindly because of the same. Which seems as though it's contradictory, but it is most definitely not.\r\n\r\nAnd, as it turns out, **trust needs to be earned** anyway. \r\n\r\nBut there's even more than **this** to consider when I think about the word \"Trust\"...\r\n\r\n![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)\r\n\r\nWhat I finally understood after repeated experiences with dishonesty, broken trust and disappointment over the years... is that even when trust **has** been earned you can’t really trust anybody but yourself at the end of the day. \r\n\r\nI know this sounds as though I’m somehow damaged or bitter because of my experience. \r\n\r\nBut I'm really not. \r\n\r\nI'm very much at peace with things these days.\r\n\r\nBut it took three long years of total isolation and hard work after a final massive breach of trust to \"get\" and accept what I’m sharing with you here. \r\n\r\nIt also took a great deal of thought. A f*ck ton of meditation. And even some research. And it took asking others who had similar journeys and listening to their stories and ways of progressing as well to find my own peace. \r\n\r\nI worked hard to return to some semblance of the person I once was. I was almost desperate to feel okay again, you see. The thing is… blindly trusting people the way that I used to was never okay in the first place. It was somewhat childish and extremely naive. \r\n\r\nAnd it got me hurt repeatedly. \r\n\r\nI lived in an ideal world created inside my own mind, mostly. Refusing to see any kind of real truth because reality wasn’t so pretty. Love and light, you know? Peace and love, you know? And yes. These things are all very good and well. \r\n\r\nIt’s just… human beings. And human nature, you know?\r\n\r\nAnd people sometimes react in strange ways and do strange things when they feel their survival is threatened. Even psychologically threatened - as in their place in a work, community or social hierarchy. \r\n\r\nSo no. People do good things sometimes. And we do not so good things sometimes. And you can’t trust anyone one hundred percent **all** of the times because people make mistakes on to of all of this. \r\n\r\nThe thing is... when I truly learned to be okay with myself, I found I didn't **need** to trust anybody else anyway. \r\n\r\nI was simply able to fully accept them as who they are.\r\n\r\n![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)\r\n\r\nThat none of us are totally trustworthy all of the time is a fact.\r\n\r\nYes it is disappointing and it adds to the existential angst of the experience of \"being human\".\r\n\r\nHello. That's why we feel this in the first place. It's the nature of being human. This sense of inherent isolation despite our ongoing attempts at some kind of mutual perception and reality.\r\n\r\nBut while it can feel lonely initially, it is actually surprisingly liberating when you fully accept it. \r\n\r\n![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)\r\n\r\nI think most of us \"get it\" intellectually but still secretly wish it weren’t so. That we could change it somehow. And it's in the taking of this realization from a concept to an awakening/understanding to a proper, full acceptance that the \"liberation\" occurs.\r\n\r\nUnderstanding that people are generally unconsciously acting out their own stories and that their behaviour really has little or nothing to do with you is very liberating indeed. \r\n\r\nYou get to a point where you don’t even feel you need to respond much. It’s simpler to just step back and wait things out. Wait for things to pass.\r\n\r\nEven if it **seems** like you have something to do with an exchange. Most of human communication is generally projection and miscommunication, surprisingly. This becomes very clear if you really take the time to put your own perspective aside, completely, and ask with enough curiosity to get a proper glimpse of another human being’s experience of the world.\r\n\r\nSometimes it's quite incredible how profoundly different two people who are having the same conversation's understanding is, of what has even been said.\r\n\r\nEye-opening, in fact!\r\n\r\nTry it sometime. \r\n\r\nThe next time you're having a difficult discussion with someone, take the time to reflect back to them what it is that you understand that they have said. \r\n\r\nFirst!\r\n\r\n\"What I'm understanding you saying is...\" \r\n\r\nstart there. And do please let me know how it goes :)\r\n\r\nOnce you’re able to take things less personally and observe things with less attachment, or non-attachment in full… well… there really isn't much need to trust anybody but yourself!\r\n\r\n![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)\r\n\r\nNobody can control the behaviour of anybody else. And a person can be driven quite mad by even trying to do such a thing.\r\n\r\nBecause control is an illusion anyway, you see.\r\n\r\nWe all know this.\r\n\r\nThere’s a quote that goes something like \"If you love someone set them free. If they come back they're yours forever and if they don't they never really were.\"\r\n\r\nAre we able to \"own\" people as \"ours\".\r\n\r\nReally?\r\n\r\nHow about just setting them free and not expecting them to come back or be anything other than they truly are instead?\r\n\r\n![hr.png](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/nickydee/48FDjDALfbUj8X8dqBhS2y36RczEaBtJvTR5FHnu1Xb8oSs4UjxVdcFsBvNSjNn19J.png)\r\n\r\n## Happy HPUD to all! 🔥\r\n\r\nI powered up today. 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@enginewitty ·
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@nickydee ·
Aw... you. See? You. 

You're too kind. But please don't stop. 🌺
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@hivebuzz ·
Congratulations @nickydee! You received a personal badge!

<table><tr><td>https://images.hive.blog/70x70/http://hivebuzz.me/badges/pud.s1.png?202210020005</td><td>You powered-up at least 10 HIVE on Hive Power Up Day! This entitles you to a level 1 badge.<br>Participate in the next Power Up Day and try to power-up more HIVE to get a bigger Power-Bee.<br>May the Hive Power be with you!</td></tr></table>

<sub>_You can view your badges on [your board](https://hivebuzz.me/@nickydee) and compare yourself to others in the [Ranking](https://hivebuzz.me/ranking)_</sub>


**Check out the last post from @hivebuzz:**
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@jesuslnrs ·
*Welcome to the Hive Open Mic community! We love it when talented artists like you come along. I really enjoyed reading your post while listening to you sing, the timing of the song and reading go hand in hand and create a magical atmosphere.... You have everything it takes to be successful around here, congratulations. I wish you the best of days and look forward to seeing you in week 130 which is about to begin.*

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@nickydee ·
What a wonderful and encouraging welcome!

Thank you 😊

I really enjoyed going through some of the entries today as well. It's awesome seeing real people being themselves and getting engaged. Really heartwarming. Smiles and toe tapping the whole way through.

And a great way to spend some time relaxing on a Sunday.

Looking forward to more from the community and participating as well. ❣️
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@julianhorack ·
There is a term in crypto industry - "trustless". They say "don't trust - verify".
 
With age one loses the naive idealism and learns that we can trust no one, not even ourselves. Vedanta teaches that we cannot trust our minds and senses, the latter being imperfect, subject to illusion, to making mistakes and to occasionally cheat.

We can, however, trust in the process and in our higher self.
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@nickydee ·
What an intelligent and inspiring comment.

Thanks for that, Julian.

This is why I ask for your experience so often 😊
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