The people that act like idiots are probably pretty convinced that it's purely because they're unlucky too ;D

How do you make a career out of victimhood? o_O

And on your followup yeh I'd say you're not young and pretty enough sadly XD although I have seen plenty of videos of young pretty girls bawling their eyes out on Tiktok (and moreso when I was trying to mediate some seriously ridiculous drama a few years ago) and I'm not even on Tiktok (I just keep getting shown things which is fine then I have some vague idea of what's going on I guess).

> Every word they hear is an attack, Every word they read was written to harm them.

Yep.

> We tend to stop trying if we think others aren't trying. We tend to not give, when we think others don't give. We tend to follow the crowd.

I will always call it me being unreasonably stubborn (because I am unreasonably stubborn) but I guess oppositional defiance is useful sometimes XD

<sub>I have beeen known to do things because they need to be done and they're not being done and I will very likely be very annoyed with everyone else for making me do it because I am almost always the absolute worst person for the job</sub>

I quite frankly don't care how desperately "everyone else" is trying to scramble frantically to hell in a handbasket, I'm going to keep making the world better out of sheer spite XD

ps - completely forgot to add the usual cheerful reminder about the stuff that's going good, hope writing it out helped you process the nonsense that would have been bugging you :) 

<sub>the posts like this have the same tone as the furious ones I write out in my Obsidian journal XD</sub>