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RE: Back and Forth by tarazkp

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· @tarazkp ·
>I wish I could be a fly on the wall for many of your conversations 

I would invite you in to join! I am pretty open with people here - more open in real life :)

> I hope you perplex her, challenge her, make her think.

I feel she is a bit unsure what to make of it all at the moment. I hope it helps me though :D

>Depression, anxiety, fear, loathing - all of these and more motivate me. 

I wonder if there was a meta analysis on what kinds of people make the most impact on the world (positive and negative), who would it be. The contented and happy, or the ones who have a lot of negative valence.  
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@owasco ·
The ones who *allow* negative valence would be my guess. Who thrive on it, pull up their bootstraps and get busy embracing the disruption to turn it to gain. 

> I hope it helps me though :D

I have worried about your disclosing your therapy here, worried that it would add a layer of obstructive stuff to your "progress." But you don't disclose what was actually discussed at your sessions. So no need to answer this next question of mine - what kind of help do you think you need? A friend of mine recently recommended EMDR for me. I have only a small understanding of what that is. All I'd really like to do is wipe certain memories from my regular thinking. She says it would reduce their power. Reminds me of a poem I wrote a while ago:

*I wish I didn't
think of you everytime
I wash the dishes*

Are you still working? Have you begun your job search? The situation you are in would be depressing to *anyone!* 
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