Nice post :) 
i like your post, i am proud of you, keep on getting rich. @crytoctopus
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Just keep practicing. It will come. You mentioned previously about hand writing on paper. Have you been able to do that? Even if you keep having to look at the solution document, if you find you are looking less often, you're making progress! Keep at it. It will come.

I am happy to follow your writing, because I also want to learn about programming language, hopefully with your post I further know again thank you

mavilliously done!

you create a great post...and i think  java script is a best programing language...

First of all I like your post as a computer engineer.I was afraid when I tried to write the first code. We were trying to do something on a computer that I had never seen before. it was much harder than learning a new language. But when I did not give up and went on, I realized that it was very enjoyable.Do not give up, I'm sure you'll succeed.
Thanks for sharing @cryptoctopus

This is what I was talking about yesterday or the day before, you kind of need to create little projects yourself using these brand new concepts to truly figure out how they work. It's super hard, and slows down progress substantially, but it does allow you to get each new thing solid in your brain before you move on.

All of this is extremely complicated, and in my own experience there seems to be a flow on effect of misunderstanding... in that, if you don't understand something but move on, then you won't understand the next bit that relied on the previous bit, etc etc.

For me, I can read and "learn" stuff and it doesn't necessarily stick. If I really want to learn something, I have to do it. Coding also seems like a subject that if you don't have a strong base for your knowledge, a lot of the more technical stuff might not work, since there wasn't a great foundation. If you want my opinion as a non-coder, I would suggest taking it slow (for now at least).

really need this

Hy thanks for starting the programming world 
<Fear and Doubts...Can I Even Read?

The first time you see some thing one gets fear but the more an d more one gets into some thing the more the become kings into it.

Am a programmer too expt that have not been cording for a whole due to the fact that I did not have a computor to use but i am going to buy one for my self on am next withdw

I love your transparency.  Takes some serious bite to put yourself out here like that.

So.  My coding education is way more about finding errors in programs rather than writing them myself.  Other people can write stuff that works, and I can make it work with my stuff.  My thrust has always been more about reading than writing code.

Thanks for another look into your personal journey.  It's really fascinating to watch and learn.

What is this DOM? 
Design of mechine ????

Great bro u r doing great .keep it up👍👍👍 .i have also fund of learning java programing but unable to go through it due to some reasons.
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Fear is often a liar and big obstacle. Practise is most important when you try to accomplish challenging task or project. Will follow your progress and maybe get inspired along the way.

when I started studying business-informatics i felt the same way you feel right now. Just keep going on, in the beginning its not important to understand everything but to gain experience.

Great posts btw :)

So true... coding is not easy at allespecially when its just you on your own. Dont worry, you 'll do just fine!

What little code I know... is from having to learn in order to participate on the <b><i>STEEMIT</i></b> platform!  Html and Markdown code was not in my wheelhouse!  I tried to learn as fast as possible and was surprised I never gave it a go sooner.  I never graduated to the Java level... and doubt that I can read code myself to any true degree.  I know that in my quest to grow that this learning experience will catapult me to the next level of my own development.  

I don't know if I can help you in your quest as you are Already far ahead of me on the path.  I can say that at times... It did help me to just move on and continue with repetition until it clicked, whilst at other times.. Understanding WHY I was doing a thing made it easier to absorb and apply.  I would suggest...  just keep on keepin on either way.  I know this is the first post of hopefully many!  But I am excited and inspired to understand the lingo here you used that I am not privy to as well as making an effort to get started with at least the basics of Java.  

I am shamelessly hoping to learn vicariously through your posted experiences and wisdom along the way in conjunction with my own studies and applications.  Thank you for this post and I encourage you to just ride the lightning my friend!

Love the ideal and outcome of programming but to write a code is not just my thing. Well I'm going to follow you on this journey to see what I will get out of it

I remember when I tried to learn coding with code academy online.  It was fun.  But I didnt understand as well. 

The IT guys in my office said that with practice it gets better.  But I have long forgotten about it.  Lol ☺

First i admire youur courage to share your view on coding and the difficulty you facing in it. What my thought are us that, i had alittle experience learning excel on my own through a PDF manual, it wasnt really easy at all trying to start from the basic to a more advanced stage but i am proud that though i am not a guru in excel but some Certain things tbat is important i can do it all on my own and it all started from continuous practicing of the basis without the manual and where the trick lies is,if you cant teach someone that basis and you progress in learning your programming it barely sticks to the brain without looking at the coding again. So its best you try as much to teach yourself and if you cant code the simplest coding on your own then don't move further and sure let your time on a particular stage not weigh you down ans let other programmers dream not push you hard. Just know practice make perfect and perfection is not 2years. Its all a process. So i feel when you can do coding without copying,then you can become a good programmer .go keep working,you will come back ere in few time to tell us your hard work how it has paid. And sure it will. I am giving you an advice from a view of myself in terms of Excel and how my brother became knowledgeable in app making on his own...thanks for sharing and i we are ere to back your dreams up

I'm very interested in learning coding language. Thank you for sharing your experience

you must enjoy the process, indirectly you will be happy in learning, if you are happy in learning of course you will try to understand the lesson, my suggestion, finish one by one, then you step forward.

Man I sure wish I could help!

You will love who you become, i write code myself

You will love who you become, i write code myself

I think the best would be to fully understand each step in the learning process. Probably a person with a lot of experience in Java could explain you what is best, but for me moving along and leaving some lesson without understand it might not be the best. 

Good luck on your coding journey!

You shouldn't give up just yet. The fact that you keep forgetting the steps does not mean you forever will. Persistence is the key, the more you keep at it, the more it gradually becomes part of you. Am guessing soon you will be coding in your dreams too lol

I started coding and I was in this same situation, but after consulting others :  I had a better understanding of what I'm doing each time. Though I'm still learning, I believe consulting reliable programmers will help. 

Everything will be fine, because you seem determined

I think you should understand coding rather than copying an instructor. Basic understanding of any broad thing such as coding is very important. For me I prefer programming. It's easier. It is like figuring out how the steps needed to do something. Coding is just translating that into a language the computer can execute.

Yay!!! I've been waiting all day to read your coding post. I always have a lot to learn from it.

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>It's easy to code when I copy someone else on a screen but am I truly understanding what I am being taught? Should I move along and hope that things get clearer for me in the future modules or should I redo the exercise again and again until I can write it without looking into the solution document?

As a newbie in coding, I'm sometimes faced with exactly this same issue - getting into a tight corner when I try to put into practice what I watched in the coding tutorial or lesson. It is sometimes difficult and it becomes more complicated when I'm not even sure if I'm doing the right thing.

One of the ways I help myself is to rewatch the video or tutorials again and then read more about that topic online, watch more videos about it and see if I'll be able to grasp it.

Sometimes it's still difficult to comprehend, so I move on to another topic hoping that I will one day come across somebody who will really sit me down and explain to me how it is done in a more clearer way.
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In other news, I've got a friend from India and he's good in python coding. Met him on reddit and he's been wonderful and teaching me well.

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Also, I've been following your tips too @cryptoctopus and it really helps me a lot.

Thanks for this Diary, I'll be following it up to keep learning from your experiences.

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fear and doubt are always the major setbacks for starting something very important and big, in these aspect JAVASCRIPT requires lots of commitment and consistency so to be able to understand and differentiate between loops variables arrays objects which are the basic foundation you have to master before understanding the concept of JAVASCRIPT 

Am also a victim of these...

wish you the very best and also never to give up as am also not giving up on the programme

When a small kid blabbers some syllables, just repeats sounds and tries to communicate by pointing his finger and repeating what he things he hears does he ponder the question:

"Can I even communicate?"

No. 

Don't expect mastery to come within a few weeks. Trial and error is still the best way learn things. You may think you're beating yourself up over one small detail for hours, find a solution and think you took ages for such a simple thing, chances are you'll never forget that detail and it will bring you much benefit in the future..

Stay strong, keep going!!

@cryptoctopus, I can assure you, your diary is inspiring. Having read your previous post and this one, I've just bought two beginner courses (HTML and  CSS3, plus Javascript) at Udemy. I have no experience in coding at all (that's not quite true, 28 years ago I learnt **Pascal** :-)) and now I'm more than 40. What can I loose? I will have some fun, for sure. Anyway, thank you for sharing your thoughts! I'll be watching you! :-)

There is always hope of ray if you keep on movie. Never give up. Be confident, surely things will get clearer and one day you will be a good coder. Keep going, good luck.

<blockquote>It's easy to code when I copy someone else on a screen but am I truly understanding what I am being taught?</blockquote>

This is the first step, if you are understanding other's code, then yes, one day you will be able to write a complete program yourself. 

I went through the course you're taking, it's good but I don't think so it's good to learn JS before you completely master HTML and CSS. 

I would suggest to take <a href="https://www.udemy.com/design-and-develop-a-killer-website-with-html5-and-css3/">this course</a> first, a complete course where you will be developing your own website from scratch. This course helped me understand some basic concepts that I never knew. 

And don't give up please. I dived into this coding stuff 6 months ago at the age of 29 and 7 months and I have been facing the same issue while learning PHP but I know, once I master this language, I will have a whole new world to explore!